From the book "The Soul's Code : in search of character and calling." Copyright © 1996 by James Hillman. This Warner Books edition is published by arrangement with Random House, New York, NY. Warner Books, Inc., New York, NY.
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Loneliness and Exile
The "Judy Garland story" tells of solitude in the midst of world acclaim. How do we account for the loneliness that accompanies every life? Loneliness is not specific to stars in huge Hollywood houses, or reserved for aged senior in nursing homes. Loneliness belongs to childhood, too. That loneliness in a child's heart may be aggravated by fears of the dark, punishing parents, or rejecting comrades. Its source, however, seems to be the solitary uniqueness of each daimon, an archetypal loneliness inexpressible in a child's vocabulary and formulated hardly better in ours.
Moments of dejection drop us into a pool of loneliness. Waves of intense loneliness occur as aftershocks of childbirth, of divorce, of the death of a long-lived partner. The soul pulls back, mourns alone. Twinges of loneliness accompany even a marvelous birthday celebration and a victorious accomplishment. Are these mere hangovers---compensatory falls after unusual heights? Nothing seems to hold against the drop. All the networking that has interlaced our extension outward and downward into the world---family, friends, neighbors, lovers, little routines, and the results of years of work---seem to count for nothing. We feel ourselves curiously depersonalized, very far away. Exiled. No connection anywhere. The spirit of loneliness has taken over.
To guard against these moments we have philosophies that explain them and pharmaceuticals that deny them. The philosophies say the uprooted and hurried condition of modern city life and impersonal work has created a social condition of anomie. We are isolated because of the industrial economic system. We have become mere numbers. We live consumerism rather than community. Loneliness is symptomatic of victimization. We are victims of a wrong way of life. We should not be lonely. Change the system---live in a cooperative or a commune; work in a team. Or build relationships: "Connect, only connect." Socialize, join recovery groups, get involved. Pick up the phone. Or ask your doctor for a prescription for Prozac.
Deeper than social philosophy and social remedy is the account of moral theology. It recognizes in loneliness the sin of the Fall. We are cut off from Eden and from God owing to the Original Sin of humankind. When we feel alone and lost in the valley, we are stray sheep that have wandered from the path of redemption, out of grace and out of faith and therefore out of hope. We can no longer hear the call of the shepherd or obey the bark of his persistently nipping dog hounding our conscience with guilt. We are alone purposely, in order to hear the still small voice whose whispering is drowned out by the madding crowd. Even worse: Loneliness is evidence of damnation for our personal sins committed in the corruptible body of flesh. Of course Judy Garland was homeless, needy, broke, and lonely. These are the wages of sin.
Moral theology from the East considers the suffering of isolation to be the task imposed on this life by past karmic actions in another incarnation or as a preparation for the next. Moral theologies whether Eastern or Western subtly transform the sense of loneliness into the sin of loneliness, exacerbating its unhappiness. Grin and bear it. Or repent.
Existentialism, another way of accounting for loneliness, accepts the suffering of isolation as basic to its theory of human existence. Heidegger or Camus, for instance, places the human being into the situation of "throwness." We are merely thrown into being here (Dasein). The German word for "thrown" (Wurf) combines senses of the throw of the dice, a projection, and a litter of pups or piglets cast by a bitch or a sow. Life is your project; there is nothing to tell you what it's all about, which of course leaves you feeling existential anxiety and dread. It's all up to you, each individual alone, since there is no cosmic guarantee that anything makes sense. There is neither God nor Godot to wait for. You make a life out of the deepest feelings of meaninglessness. The heroic ability to turn loneliness into individual strength is the way that Judy Garland failed to find. She was too dependent, too weak, too fearful to combine "solitary" and "solidary," a motto proposed by Camus in one of the tales collected in his aptly titled work 'The Exile and the Kingdom.' Garland's desperation demonstrates the truth of existential nihilism. Such would be the existentialist reading.
These ways of thinking about loneliness---social, therapeutic, moral, existential---make two assumptions that I cannot accept. First, each says that loneliness equates with literal aloneness and consequently is remediable by some sort of human action, such as repenting for sins, therapeutic relating, building the project of your life with your own heroic hands. Second, each assumes that loneliness is fundamentally unpleasant.
But if there is an archetypal sense of loneliness accompanying us from the beginning, then to be alive is also to feel lonely. Loneliness comes and goes apart from the measures we take. It does not depend on being literally alone, for pangs of loneliness can strike in the midst of friends, in bed with a lover, at the microphone before a cheering crowd. When feelings of loneliness are seen as archetypal, they become necessary; they are no longer harbingers of sin, of dread, or of wrong. We can accept the strange autonomy of the feeling and free loneliness from identification with literal isolation. Nor is loneliness mainly unpleasant once it receives its archetypal background.
When we look---or, rather, 'feel'---closely into the sense of loneliness we find it is composed of several elements: nostalgia, sadness, silence, and a yearning imagination for "something else" not here, not now. "For these elements and images to show, we first have to focus on them rather than on remedies for being left literally alone. Desperation grows worse when we seek ways out of despair.
These conditions of nostalgia, sadness, silence, and a yearning imagination are the stuff of Judy Garland's songs, her voice and phrasing, her body language, her face and eyes. No wonder her performances reached the common heart as no others did. Nostalgia, sadness, silence, and imaginative yearning are also the inmost stuff of religious and romantic poetry in many languages and many cultures. They remind the acorn of its origins. Like E. T. in the Spielberg film, the acorn seems nostalgic, sad, silent, and filled with yearning for an image of "home." Loneliness presents the emotions of exile; the soul has not been able to fully grow down, and is wanting to return. To where? We do not know, for that place the myths and cosmologies say is gone from memory. But the imaginative yearning and the sadness attest to an exile from what the soul cannot express except as loneliness. All it can recall is a nostalgia of feeling and an imagination of yearning. And a condition of want beyond personal needs.
Therefore, when we look again at Judy Garland, we can begin to understand why even when she was hardly able to find the words or hit the notes, the crowd called for those lyrics, "Somewhere, over the rainbow," and for the song's last yearning question, "Why can't I?" We can begin to understand as well how Garland was able to keep her fans and professional admirers, despite the shaming collapses and infuriating, erratic petulance of drunken, drugged, messed-up Frances Gumm--her birth name. She made each of her listeners aware of what they, too, most intimately were longing for: the awakened image in the heart of the exiled and its yearning for what was not in this world.
We can also read again the last phases of her life as conditions appropriate to exile, like that of a wanderer on the road, a vagrant or a pilgrim, a member of the Diaspora, a Sufi poet-beggar, or a wine-drunk Zen monk. The daimon's home is not on the earth; it lives in an altered state; the body's frailty is a basic precondition of the soul's life on earth; and don't we each leave the world with debts unpaid? Drop the sociology and the psychoanalysis and Garland stands among the few who could never fully grow down because it was her acorn not only to sing and dance in the theatrical spotlight, to be the magical child and enact the otherworld's presence as the white-faced clown, but also to be the representative of exile and its longing.
Stardom II: Josephine Baker
Another equally miraculous woman, whose movement down the Kabbalistic Tree took a different course, was born in St. Louis Social Evil Hospital in 1906, also in June. From this degraded entry into the world she first had to rise to the stars before she could begin her remarkable downward course. As Frances Gumm bore the genius of "Judy Garland," Freda J. McDonald (or Tumpy, as she was called as a child) bore "Josephine Baker."
This, too, was a woman of fascination and extravagance. Josephine Baker Burst into the world at the Theater of the Champs-Elysees (Elysian Fields of heavenly paradise) in Paris in October 1925, nude but for a few feathers. The motions of her frenzied dancing body "gave all of Paris a hard-on." She was then nineteen.
By thirteen she had already been married. That first husband, a steelworker, was earning, but Josephine "spent every penny he brought home on dresses." As the success following the Paris opening brought in money, her "dresses" expanded: Now she had dogs she traveled with, a monkey on her shoulder, an ostrich cart. She loved cars, although she could not drive. Among those she owned was a rare and expensive Bugatti. In January 1928 she and her manager left Paris for Vienna taking along, besides hangers-on, lovers, and relatives, "a secretary, a chauffeur, a maid, a typewriter, two dogs, 196 pairs of shoes, assorted dresses and furs, 64 kilos of facepowder, and 30,000 publicity shots for the fans."
The body into which her soul descended was one thing, its early circumstances quite different. Scarce food, bedbugs; sleeping on the floor with the dog, hired out, as a child, to work where she and a dog shared the same food and fleas. The woman she worked for beat her, and kept her naked because clothes cost too much. Still a child, she was pawned off to another house to work, and sleep with, a white-haired old man. That she'd gotten this far was already an accomplishment. Records of the health department in St. Louis show that three out of five children died before the age of three.
She was dancing even then, in a basement where she set up a little stage and box benches. She slapped the other kids around so they would sit still and pay attention while she performed. She spent every minute she could watching performances at the local clubs and halls, and hung around the show people when they came through.
Once she carried a snake into a funeral where the coffin lay open. The snake got loose and panicked the mourners; the coffin tipped over, the corpse rolled, and the snake was bashed to death by the angry people. Tumpy---or was it already Josephine, protector of animals?---screamed, "You've killed my friend!" It's not so unusual for children to feel an animal's soul. Yet we also should recall that the snake is perhaps the most ancient and universal carrier of the genius spirit, the figure of a protective guardian, the "genius" itself. Had she already made friends with her acorn? . . . . . .
Josephine Baker's star life shows many similarities to that of Judy Garland: the huge public acclaim and the public eclipse; the mesmerizing performances; the need to "be in love"; the struggle with men as lovers, partners, and exploiters (one young man shot himself right in front of her and died at her feet); money running through her fingers; the show-business whirl and its glamorizing effect on personal habits and health; the ascent from nowhere; the complete lack of a normal education; obsessions with physical inferiorities (Garland worried over her weight and build, Baker over her hair); and sex. . . . . . .
Garland's biographers indicate some of the same compulsive eroticism. The main similarity lies in both women's ability to fascinate, to represent a transcendent aspect of the human soul that calls to each soul in the audience. It is as if they can show off the daimon, let it be seen and heard. Garland's daimon was "Over the Rainbow," Baker's "La Danse de sauvage."
The parallels part. Josephine Baker grows down. This movement must not be explained away by her down-and-dirty act, her down-and-out childhood, the downfall of her career, or by the easy racist explanation that, since she was black, down was her way. She was not put down, nor did she fall down; Josephine Baker grew down.
She moved step by step into the political and social world. First, it was the war that began in 1939; she was then thirty-two. She wanted to do all she could for her adopted country, France. This meant risking her life for the French underground by smuggling information, hidden in musical scores, across the borders of France and Spain into Portugal. Being black, she was banned from the theater and was in danger of deportation, even execution. In Morocco, where she was kept royally by relatives of the ruling family, she worked at saving Jews from roundups; for a while she wore a yellow Star of David on her coat, a far cry from pink plumes. During the cold winter after the liberation of Paris she scavenged hundreds of pounds of meat, bags of vegetables, and coal to help the poor. She was awarded the Legion d'Honneur and the Croix de Guerre for her contributions and was congratulated by de Gaulle.
The next step down was her return to America, where she began to align herself with her St. Louis circumstances. She was an early participant in the civil rights movement; she insisted blacks be hired as stagehands; she joined the 1963 March on Washington; she visited black inmates in a New Jersey prison. For her efforts on behalf of integration she was praised by Margin Luther King, Jr., and Ralph Bunche. She also visited Castro's Cuba; the FBI's file on her ran to a thousand pages.
Baker's last step down was supporting eleven adopted children from many nations and of many colors, fighting to keep them together and to see they were fed, housed, and schooled. She toured and performed, appealing for funds to hold on to the country estate that was their home and into which she had sunk her last money. Saved once by Grace Kelly and another time by Brigitte Bardot, finally she was foreclosed and physically thrown out in the rain. Broke, homeless, aging, she gave her last show to wild acclaim, in Paris a few days before she died, April 12, 1975, at the Salpetriere hospital. Her death there recapitulated her birth at the St. Louis Social Evil Hospital, for the Salpetriere had been built for outcast women, prostitutes, syphilitics, indigents, criminals.
Rise and fall. It is one of the archetypal patterns of life, and one of its most ancient, cosmic lessons. But 'how' one falls, the style of coming down, remains the interesting part. Judy Garland's was a heroic and sad decline into collapse. Her efforts aimed at the comeback; she tried again and again to connect with the upper world of stardom, a struggle that ironically led to that dismal death in a London flat. The thirty-minute ovation Josephine Baker received in Paris that final week was both for the daimon in her body ("the people did not want to leave the theater") and for her long and slow history of growing down into this world of "social evils": fascism, racism, abandonment of children, injustice.
The Platonic myth of growing down with which we began this chapter says the soul descends in four modes---via the body, the parents, place, and circumstances. These four ways can be instructions for completing the image you brought with you on arrival. First, your body: Growing down means going with the sag of gravity that accompanies aging. (Baker told people she was sixty-four while she was still in her mid-fifties; she wore old clothes and gave up covering her baldness.) Second, admitting yourself to be one among your people and a member of the family tree, including its twisted and rotten branches. Third, living in a place that suits your soul and that ties you down with duties and customs. Last, giving back what circumstances gave you by means of gestures that declare your full attachment to this world.
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From Dictionary Copyright © 2005 Apple Computer, Inc.:
daimon
noun ( pl. -mons or -mones)
variant spelling of daemon.
daemon (also daimon)
noun
(in ancient Greek belief) a divinity or supernatural being of a
nature between gods and humans.
• an inner or attendant spirit or inspiring force.
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From Dictionary:
existentialism
noun
a philosophical theory or approach that emphasizes the existence of the individual person as a free and responsible agent determining their own development through acts of the will.
Generally taken to originate with Kierkegaard and Nietzsche, existentialism tends to be atheistic (although there is a strand of Christian existentialism deriving from the work of Kierkegaard), to disparage scientific knowledge, and to deny the existence of objective values, stressing instead the reality and significance of human freedom and experience. The approach was developed chiefly in 20th-century Europe, notably by Martin Heidegger, Jean-Paul Sartre, Albert Camus, and Simone de Beauvoir.
DERIVATIVES
existentialist noun & adjective
ORIGIN translating Danish existents-forhold ‘condition of existence’ (frequently used by Kierkegaard), from existential.
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From Dictionary:
nihilism
noun
the rejection of all religious and moral principles, often in the belief that life is meaningless.
• Philosophy extreme skepticism maintaining that nothing in the world has a real existence.
• historical the doctrine of an extreme Russian revolutionary party c. 1900, which found nothing to approve of in the established social order.
DERIVATIVES
nihilist noun
nihilistic adjective
ORIGIN early 19th cent.: from Latin nihil ‘nothing’ + -ism.
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From Thesaurus:
nihilism
noun
she could not accept Bacon's nihilism, his insistence that man is a futile being: skepticism, negativity, cynicism, pessimism; disbelief, unbelief, agnosticism, atheism.
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From Dictionary:
Kabbalah (also Kabbala, Cabala, Cabbala, or Qabalah)
noun
the ancient Jewish tradition of mystical interpretation of the Bible, first transmitted orally and using esoteric methods (including ciphers). It reached the height of its influence in the later Middle Ages and remains significant in Hasidism.
DERIVATIVES
Kabbalism noun
Kabbalist noun
Kabbalistic adjective
ORIGIN from medieval Latin: cabala, cabbala, from Rabbinical Hebrew: qabbālāh ‘tradition,’ from qibbēl ‘receive, accept.’
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Hasidism (also Chasidism, Chassidism, or Hassidism)
noun
an influential mystical Jewish movement founded in Poland in the 18th century in reaction to the rigid academicism of rabbinical Judaism.The movement declined sharply in the 19th century, but fundamentalist communities developed from it, and Hasidism is still a force in Jewish life, particularly in Israel and New York.